My symptoms are worsening. I've already lost everything. Not that I had much. But some key losses are my girlfriend of 20+ years. My independence. I have to live with my parents (I'm 46). I live in a really bad part of the country. Every time I make some change to help reduce rf/emf it seems something new pops up to thwart me. Now it seems a neighbor has a ham radio and the antennae is about 40 feet maybe less from the room I sleep in. I can see it out my window when I'm lying in bed. All the neighbors have stupid xfinity wifi. The parents alarm system is cellular and has to be on at night. They are in a contract with alarm company for 5 years. So no going to wired. I've always been kind of pathetic. My procedural memory has always been terrible. Making it hard to get and keep jobs. I've finally figured out how to make a semblance of a living but its now going to have to stop because it requires smart phone use either cellular or ethernet and both hurt. Now my symptoms have switched from tinnitus, head pressure to extreme sensitivity in my nipple chest area making me think I have Luekemia or the start. I have no medical. Can't help but think this is from my 2 fillings in my teeth or I have holes (can't see a dentist, no insirance). Could also be bad (maybe not good Titanium) plate and or screws in my ankle from broken ankle repair back in 2010 No medical insurance. No savings. Just no prospects.
Re: Anyone feel like ending it over this nonsense?
hang in there brother, you are not alone. just think though...even in your time of difficulty, if you end your life you won't have existence, and that is the ultimate goal. don't go out without a fight. be sure to eat well, stay grounded, dont pile on stress, and just remember the things in life that are REALLY important. no need to compare yourself to others. truth is, there are billions of people on this earth who are in worse conditions, so even when you feel like you don't have any blessings, you better count them because you DO have them. dont go out without a fight and send letters/call your local government to let them know. i'm tired of this bullshit as well, and i too am not at a good place in life, but i keep truckin.
Hi there I really feel for you and totally empathise with how desperate you feel. Living with this hypersensitivity is tough and not everyone understands. I know...you can feel like you're allergic to life.
You are doing so well to keep going given that not only are you coping with this hypersensitivity, but you have other issues you are enduring.
I find it always helps having at least one person you can confide in, even if they don't totally get it but can give you a listening ear. Having others who understand, like on this forum, helps you not feel so alone.
I have also found that even though at times we feel we cannot go on, as it is all too much, that 24/48 hours later our perspective can change somewhat and some of the cloud lifts. I found the 2 links to articles below helped me so much at a very low point in life. Knowing that brighter days are ahead makes all the difference in enduring this condition.
Ever thought about moving? There are still a few spots in the US with low signal. I know several EHS (including myself) who live in remote areas without electricity- some of us live out of campers on national forest land. As long as we stay out of civilization and out of cell tower range (harder and harder to find), all of our symptoms go away and we are completely healthy (often healthier than average actually). I know that logistically relocation is extremely difficult for most people, but it sounds like you are in really rough shape physically and emotionally in your current situation. Hope you feel better soon and can find some workable solution.
On a practical note Chupa, I suggest that you list what you are doing now to protect yourself from EMF. Everything, just remember to list things concisely, no rambling. Then we'll suggest things you may be missiong.
Hi Chupa, just commenting to say you could maybe use your smartphone with an ethernet cable connexion, and hardwire your WiFi router such that you don't have the WiFi RF EMFs anymore.
Also an important thing I've learnt throughout this EHS "experience", is that nonsense eventually gets you closer to "more sense ". It took me years to get to that new sense, but despite the years of suffering (and feeling this was nonsense), I can now say that I am extra grateful I've been through this. There is no nonsense. If you do all you can to hang in there despite the current nonsense, you should get to a place where it eventually dwindles away.